Finally Happy

Co-written with MJoy

As soon as the clock hits five
As soon as it’s Friday night
Baptized in neon lights
Toasting with friends of mine
Finally, I will be
I’ll be happy

As soon as I meet someone
Who’s dangerous and fun
Smokin’ hot like a gun
In lipstick set to stun
Finally, I will be
I’ll be happy

Monday morning I wake up
Feelin’ empty like my cup
Weekday weeknight misery
Don't leave me alone with me

Oh, look at the one in boots
I’ll buy her a gin and juice
I’ll start with, “Your purse is cute”
And end with her outta those shoes
Finally, I will be
I’ll be happy

Never let the feeling end
Lemme call a midnight friend
No limit to what I’ll spend
Come on and hit me again
Finally, I will be
I’ll be happy

Monday morning I wake up
Feelin’ empty like my cup
Weekday weeknight misery
Don't leave me alone with me
Every morning I wake up
Feelin’ empty like my cup
Repeating hopeless history
Don't leave me alone with me

I try to find myself in a bottle, in a body or an herb
Anything to distract me from my nerves
But no matter how much intoxication or touch
It’ll never be enough

As soon as I face the pain
Maybe I'll meditate
Should I try AA?
They say life won’t wait
Finally, I can see
No one else can make me happy
Finally, I can see
Cheap highs can’t make me happy
Finally, I can see
Only I can make me happy